Stars and Spaceships

Results!

2005-06-26T19:58:00.000-07:00

Wooo!! I got a 2:1!

I'm so pleased and relieved! I had decided that I wasn't going to get it and that I had thrown away my chances last semester.....you can see why I was a bit worried - my average was 59.6% so I really did only just get it!!

Been decorating my room at home this week (Thanks to Graham for helping!). After rearranging it feels much airier and spacious than before which is excellent. The walls are now white and the woodwork is one of 2 shades of turquoise. I likes it a lot. Still got to unpack all of my stuff into it though!

I turned 22 last tuesday. It didn't really feel like that much of a birthday this year. I guess that's because I didn't really do anything big to celebrate. For the past few years I've always had a party or been out on a major pissup...this year I just went for a meal with my family and Gray. Maybe this is a sign that I'm getting old!

PS. Congrats to Bob on his first and to everyone else who got their degrees on friday!

They can't work me out because I'm not mathematics

2005-06-16T19:05:00.000-07:00

Aloha! Not blogged for ages (again!)

I bought a magazine today which says it has 4 covers to 'collect'. I don't quite understand this concept.....why would anyway buy 4 copies of the same magazine just to 'collect' the different covers? Strange.

I have spent the day sorting out stuff in my room and adding to the ever expanding pile of paper, magazines and notes to be recycled (it's almost a metre high now!) I also did ALL the washing up in the kitchen and cleaned the draining board.....this was no mean feat (What does that actually mean? What is a feat? Is that even how you spell it?!) some of the washing up has been there since christmas and the draining board.....well it was so rank that there were actually things living under it - YUK!

This cleaning and sorting spree is all because I am leaving Southampton on Monday. It's a bit weird and sad really but at the same time I feel quite ready to move on and start the next chapter! I'm turning 22 on Tuesday, it's a shame that I won't be in Southampton to celebrate (Seeing as the weekend I wanted celebrate it in London it seems like none of my friends will be there!) but luckily there is some cool stuff planned for the weekend - should be meeting Graham's best friend on sat and Jon is having a party and then on Sunday a BBQ at Sarah's. Have to say goodbye to everyone! :-s

P.S. In web etiquette do we write :-S or :-s? Because I can never decided which one looks best!

Doh

2005-04-27T16:11:00.000-07:00

I've just painted my nails a bright shade of orange (crazy I know) and instead of patiently waiting for them to dry I decided to have a bit of a tidy (this consisted of moving some clothes about a bit) which resulted in the smudging of my freshly painted talons. This isn't the first time this phenomenon has occured, there is something in my brain that decides the moment I finish applying nail polish that it is time to do things with my hands. I guess this is what living dangerously is all about :-)

Stop raining please!

2005-04-27T11:08:00.000-07:00

Woke up this morning and felt a bit rubbish. Have been dreaming lots lately and just before I woke up I was having a dream about being trapped in a room with my friend and there being a monster outside the door which was trying to get in. The monster turned out to be a bit of an ugly dog and we eventually escaped out of the window. Now I've had some tea and porridge(with honey) and feel much better! I've started eating porridge again recently, it's actually rather yum (but a killer to wash up!)

ROCK was quite good on Monday, I didn't feel too out of place and I got a little drunk which was unsurprising seeing as I haven't really done much drinking over the past few months. However it wasn't really a fun drunken, I just felt tired and a bit sick!! On the plus side we found some promotional cactai from the film Sahara which we stole - this is a very random idea I think!! Hoping that tonight will be good. It's the AIM pubcrawl. I'm a team captain again and my team won last time so I'm hoping I will have a good team again this time and uphold my victorious title! I'm slightly worried about my current drinking capacity, as I say I haven't done much of the drinking lately so I'm not sure how much copious amounts of drinks will effect me! I'm sure I'm sure I'll get through it in the end, somehow when it comes to competitive drinking I'm seem to manage ok!! Bring it on!!

Chavs are rubbish

2005-04-22T00:35:00.000-07:00

I'm just watching the lunchtime news and they're doing a report about a young mother who has been stabbed in Surrey. So there is a reporter outside the hospital speaking live about this woman who has been a victim of a serious crime and might die.....then these stupid chavs start messing around shouting and waving right behind the reporter. Twats.

You would have thought I could have made my first blog for ages a bit more cheerful.....I'll try harder next time!

:-(

2005-03-15T16:53:00.000-08:00

It's a horrible feeling when you want to see someone and you can't.
When you want to make everything better and you can't.
When you wish you could give them a hug and you can't.
I guess I'll just have to wait....but I can't!

Trolleys and curbs do not mix....

2005-03-14T15:14:00.000-08:00

.......especially when i'm in the trolley at the time!

Had a bit of a drunken accident on Friday kids. After spending a few hours in Clowns I was feeling pretty drunk. Graham and I stumbled off to Safeways and purchased a varied selection of goodies according to the game we had made up. This involved choosing 4 bits of paper each with various indications of what to buy, i.e. 'reduced' 'frozen' 'tinned' etc and a budget of £2 each. We did pretty well at this, only going over our £4 budget by 6p. And then we found a trolley.....I decided to get in said trolley, now for some reason we decided to take a different route home. I needed a wee so I we were looking for somewhere 'ladylike' for me to go. We noticed a dark alley between two houses (this was probably just a driveway but it was dark and we were drunk) so Graham steered me in the direction.........unfortunately the curb was higher than it looked. The trolley stopped abruptly, Graham flew over it and I landed in a heap on the tarmac. At first it seemed funny....until I realised that things were hurting quite badly and my face seemed to have taken a bashing :-s Cue the tears! While Graham came away with a just few scratches and a sore hand I managed to obtain a variety of injuries! My knees are quite cut up and were very swollen (so I was walking around like an old lady!), I have a nice big black bruise on my arm, the palms of my hands are all scabby and my face looks a bit like i've been in a fight!! So let that be a lesson to you all............don't drink drive!!!

Oh and to top it all off I got home and dropped my new star-shaped belt buckle on my foot causing a nice red dent!! Doh!!

2005-03-14T10:12:00.000-08:00

wheel!

2005-03-14T10:11:00.000-08:00

ouch!

I like pretty new things!

2005-03-07T21:45:00.000-08:00

belt-tastic!

Rarrr!!

2005-03-04T22:32:00.000-08:00

yO BItChEs i'M In PlYmOUth

beEN dRiNkInG WiNe ANd nOw vOdKa, LiSTeNInG to auThOrIty sONg vERy lOUd - So mUCh So thAt GrAhAm aPpEaReD SoAkINg wEt fRoM thE ShOwer in oNLY A TowEl sO He cOulD DaNcE wIth mE To iT - LOL!!!!

sorry for crazy writing :-P

Long time no blog...

2005-02-22T15:04:00.000-08:00

Bob told me I should blog so I am. It has been a bit of an age since I last wrote one. This is muchly down to that fact that I used to just be a bit angsty about men, but those days are gone, I have found what I was looking for and I'm in love again :-D So it's all pretty ace and I don't have a lot to complain about! It has made me think about some stuff tho. Like how some small decisions you make can effect your life in such a huge way. If I had never replied to the message Graham originally sent me (which I almost didn't) then I would have missed out on something amazing. I'm not sure what this teaches us but I think it probably shows us that we should always be open to all possibilities as they present themselves! (my train of thought went a bit - can you tell?!)

Today I phoned the bank asking to extend my overdraft but they declined - BUM! They said it was because I never make any credits to my account. This seems a bit silly to me because if I had money to put into my account then I wouldn't be needing an overdraft!

Coheed & Cambria <3

Sunday morning

2005-01-30T13:49:00.000-08:00

*relax*

I think I have failed this semester. Well, not failed, but just not done that great. I didnt revise enough so my one exam didn't go as well as it could have. As for my other modules I seem to have huge issues with handing my essays in on time. This is somewhat worrying. However I have vowed to pull my socks well and truly up next semester because a 2:1 really would be quite nice.

I had a horrible realisation last week that I don't actually have any money. I have enough to pay my fees and rent next week but after that there is just £50 left of my overdraft. Hmm, really not good. I expect that £50 has gone by now also. Scary stuff. I've had to ask my parents for a loan which thankfully they have agreed to. They've helped me out before but this time I wanted to make sure that I'm gonna pay them back. Still even with this help I'm gonna have to now live on a budget of £40 a week excluding rent but including bills and food. Should be tricky - I think I shall have to hang up my party shoes....well not totally of course but I think it's probably very lucky that I'm not single anymore!! (Mmmm - Graham is yum!! x)

I'm off to Leeds tomorrow to visit Tara with Rach. Should be fun cos I never get to hang out with them properly so hopefully we shall have a nice girlie few days!

The history of Kisses.....

2005-01-25T16:00:00.000-08:00

I'VE KISSED SOMEONE:
(an X by it means ive done it)

[X]on the cheek.
[X]on the lips.
[X]on their hands or fingers.
[X]in my room.
[X]in their room.
[X]of the same sex.
[X]of the opposite sex.
[X]younger than me.
[X]older than me.
[X]with jet black hair.
[X]with curly hair.
[X]with blonde hair & blue eyes. - At least I think this combination has occured!
[X]with flaming red hair.
[X]with straight hair.
[X]smaller/shorter than me.
[X]bigger/taller than me.
[X]with a lip ring.
[X]who was drunk.
[X]who was high.
[X]who I had just met.
[]who was homosexual. - Not as far as I am aware anyway!
[X]who I didn't really want to kiss.
[]on a holiday.
[X]who was going out with someone else.
[]who was going out with someone close to me.
[]who was my good friend's brother or sister.
[]who had been/is in jail.
[]in a graveyard.
[X]at a show/concert.
[X]at the beach.
[X]in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
[]who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
[X]with dyed hair.
[]with a shaved head.
[X]who was/is my good friend.
[X]who was/is in a band. - I take it this means any kind of band and not a famous one
[X]who has tattoos.
[]who is of a completely different race than me.
[X]in the rain.
[]in another continent besides where I was born.
[X]with an accent.
[]with an std. - I hope not anyway!!
[X]on a boat.
[X]in a car/taxi/bus.
[]on a plane.
[]at the circus/carnival.
[]with a missing body part - Nearly but the part missing was the mouth! (sorry :P)
[X]in the movies. - If that means in the cinema rather than someone who is in movies!
[X]eskimo style.

Not much to say except...

2005-01-24T19:43:00.000-08:00

....I had an excellent weekend <3

hours of fun and amusement!

2005-01-19T21:23:00.000-08:00

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Check this out, just put in any website and enjoy the results!!

when it all goes good :D

2005-01-17T19:19:00.000-08:00

Well i'm feeling in a much better mood than my last blog. You know when you really look forward to something and get all excited but then when it actually happens you've built it up too much and it's not actually as great? Well that didn't happen to me this weekend!

Saturday was really just a great day. I got some amazing new straighteners (the old ones cracked!!), my parents were generous and bought me a new hard drive. Then I went down to old brixton town to see The Used, who really are one of my current faves. Had some drinkies before, gig was great :D I did fall down in the mosh twice tho which was a bit scary but luckily Graham was there to pick me back up! I now have a nice poiple bruise on my hand to show for it - rawk.

Went to the dome afterwards. I havnt been there since I was 18, and I don't think i'll be going again! Despite the night being changed it was actually just the same....except there were much less people there! But to be honest I didn't really care too much about that anyway. I spent most of my time getting better aquainted with a lovely new person :D

I think the only downside to the whole night was that I was feeling slightly sick from too much cider at the end so I couldn't have an cheese and chips!!

And there are two things in life that normally suck....journey home at 4am after a night out, and waking up........but they can both be made ultimately better if you have someone to cuddle!! Can cuddles improve more stuff I hate doing too?

Anyway, I'm in a good mood at the moment. Even my work doesnt seem so depressing now! I think the group project is coming on fine and I'm not at all worried about it. Now if only I could say the same for the essay that's due in tomorrow...........

ello chaps

2005-01-13T16:31:00.000-08:00

I've no blogged for ages. There was lots of stuff I could have written about over xmas and new years but I couldnt quite be bothered to do it!

My laptop hard drive died last week. It's most distressing. I'm such an internet loser!! I'll be getting a new one at the weekend tho.

This is such a boring blog, I am really very uninspired right now. I seem to be having a complete mental block when it comes to writing anything. I have a 2000 word french essay that was due in yesterday afternoon.....I have now written 700 words.....However apparently they're not penalising work that is handed in late on this essay as there was a problem with blackboard during the holidays but still.......I am going to fail this year!! I don't know what has happened to me but I am really finding it so hard to do work. In a way all I want to do in life is be a bum and have fun.....oh dear....

Annoying!

2004-12-27T01:41:00.000-08:00

God I really hate the stupid KFC advert where the kid is dressed like a new romantic and they sing a stupid song about liking chicken on a bone and stuff. Grrrrrrrr! So damn annoying, I keep getting the song in my head after I see it.....think I may have to destroy all tvs.

Oh and can you believe they blew up Dan on Hollyoaks?!?!

Now where did I put that mistletoe?

2004-12-21T17:42:00.000-08:00

Back in London now, woo! Went shopping on oxford street with Han and Mre yesterday. Was cool, I've not got everything done apart from Tara but will sort that tomorrow. Ended up being out for 10 hours! We interspersed (sp?) our mammoth shopping trip with a huge pig out at pizza hut buffet, yumm! It was a bit rubbish tho cos they were a bit slack with getting enough pizzas out at once. Ah well. I love london, it's all pretty with all the xmas lights (I've realised I really like fairy lights and bright things in general!) We went into Hamleys, it's so big there. Had fun trying on this massive dreadlock wig and cowboy hats. I also saw these giant glasses and just *had* to by them. I apologise for my insane grin, you can clearly see how much they excite me!

They also had these life size stuffed spiderman things strapped to a display. I did wonder why anyone would make this type of thing cos they basically looked like dead bodies. I had fun hugging them (no i'm not a necrophiliac) - almost made me wish I had a camera phone.

Had a big long chat on the phone to Bob last. Poor lad had some hard decisions to make, I think he's probably done the right thing though. It's weird that I was giving my ex girl advice but thinking about it he's being doing the same for me for months so really it's not that weird at all! I'm glad we can still be best friends :D

Saw Mr-Infatued-with-for-ages in HMV today. I think I might actually be over him now. Was a bit awkward talking to him cos he was working and stuff but I didnt feel messed up about it or anything so it's all good. He was looking way beardy too. Sorry to all you chin wig lovers out there, but it's just not a good look on some guys!

Off to see everyone at the ol'Goose tonight. :D

My laptop needs speakers!!

insaneo

Kissing rocks

2004-12-17T23:22:00.000-08:00

I'm pleased to say I did partake in the rocksoc 3 legged pub golf last night. I did pretty damn good too! I had to down the following: double vodka (neat), rum (tiny splash of coke), baileys, frodo at the hobbit, red aftershock, double tequilla and a snakebite......all of which I managed with relative ease. Disappointingly my team mate Trim couldnt quite manage to down his pint of carling, so I decided to finish it for him - go me! I have come to realise that when it comes to drinking I'm actually quite competitive and something inside takes over and allows me to drink like some sort of fish! Was a probably a good thing we werent successful tho to be honest, cos otherwise it would have meant doing the vodka showdown! So many people were sick in the dungeon, the floor was covered in saw dust and apparently we got asked not to down anymore drinks and bob ended up being kicked out for puking in the toilets! I didn't puke tho, woo! I did lots of kissing instead! Hehehe, kissing rocks ;)

So as you can imagine been feeling slightly dodgy today! As a result I've eaten fuckloads! Went to Burger King (a whopper with cheese was in order) and after a pint of juicy lucy we decided to to the Safeway Challenge - Basically you have £2 and you have to buy as much exciting stuff as possible! So I got some garlic bread, potato salad, tin of beans & chicken nuggets, rhubarb and custard crumble corner and a pack of 3 doughnuts!! There is now one doughnut left and I feel pretty sick!!

lollies are yummy

2004-12-16T14:18:00.000-08:00

Woo, I found out that I got 70% on my individual project. This makes Hannah a happy bunny! I was so worried about it, especially about plagerism, but it looks like it's all ok!

Blink 182 were great on tuesday (Sugarcult were also very good), got well close to the front so very sweaty and squished! Fortunately I managed to escape being kicked in the head which is often a hazard of being close! I've also got some additions to 'People that annoy me in the crowd at gigs'.....

1. People wearing big backs on their backs - they get in the way and scratch
2. Topless guys - they're all sweaty and ming
3. Couples who don't let go of each other!
4. Girls with long hair that gets stuck to everything
5. Guys wearing caps

Travelling on the national express yesterday coming back from london I was pleased to find they had little tv screens showing blackadder. Cool I thought, however to listen to it you had to pay £3 for these special headphones and normal headphones wouldnt fit into the socket. Grr how very capitalist!!

Had fun at Rhino's last night, although I thought the music wasn't as good as usual. Barely a drop of ska and didn't hear many of me fave tunes. Still a good night of course. I made a bit of a tit of myself saying stupid things when drunk. Went up to some guy, told him he was cute and that all the cute guys are at the institute! Going up to random guys seems to be my new thing to do when drunk, I think i need to improve my chat up skills tho, I never seem to have much success!! No harm done I guess!!

Rocksoc 3 legged pub golf tonight. I don't know if I should go, I probably will, even tho I can't afford it and I have an exam tomorrow morning. I think I'm really quite silly!

fuck a dog

2004-12-14T13:34:00.000-08:00

Yayness, i'm going to see blink 182 tonight at brixton academy. It's gonna be ace. Me and dawson plan to sandwich the gig with drinking in cheap establishments such as wetherspoons. I've only seen blink once before, and that was at reading, it's true that they're not the best singers, but I know all the songs so i'm thinking it's gonna be enjoyable whatever happens. Plus Sugarcult are supporting which is cool beans.

I need to find people to go to rhino's with tomorrow night. I'm crossing all my fingers and toes that Bridget will manage to persuade her lads to come with. Then the world of Hannah will be a happy and joyful place!

I just sat next to a midget!

Ballface

2004-12-11T12:36:00.000-08:00

Can you believe christmas is two weeks away?! I've barely given it a thought yet! I like xmas though, I know it's commercial and stupid but I like the whole atmosphere. I like the decorations, just makes everything pretty and shiny, and it means fairy lights are everywhere, and that cant be a bad thing!

Went to the ball last night. Was really fun getting ready and next door cooked some lovely food and we drank wine. We got a taxi to the guildhall and it was all quite exciting. Slight anti-climax, I dont think it was really worth the £20 that I haven't given to Rach yet! It was cool seeing everyone dressed up though, there were some lovely dresses on show! I had fun sticking silver stars to my chest and the ceiling looked amazing with all these black and white drapes and star shapped things hanging from them (I do like stars!!) I felt like I was taller than *everyone* in my heels, they make me about 6'1" and I swear about 5 % of guys were taller than me! The guys were rubbish last night, didnt see one hottie, so no kissing fun for hannah!! I think maybe I just have a prejudice against formal wear, give me a guy with some messed up hair and baggy trousers any day!!

Dreamt about Boy1 loads last night. He's so yummy, I wish he could be mine!

Wow! Ash are playing at FROG @ meanfiddler tonight! That would so awesome to see them in such a small club. Grrr, I'm here tho, not london. I could get on a train and go.......lol, I really can't afford to do that though! Have no idea what I'm gonna do tonight actually, perhaps a party at Vicky's.

boys boys boys, i'm looking for a good time

2004-12-09T21:28:00.000-08:00

Havent blogged for ages now! Much fun was had a rhinos last night. I'm so silly tho, I was playing box full of sharp objects and in my drunken state I got a bit confused and halfway through the song pressed the wrong button and started playing it from the start! Oops! I might as well write about guy stuff, cos that's what I think about. Talked to Boy1 again last night, which was really nice cos i've not really spoken to him for ages, he's definately top of my list of ppl I want, I just texted him and he replied - woo! Still yet to find out for sure if he has a girlfriend or not tho!! And there's Boy2.....well it turns out he's a big drunken hussy. I've never met such a flirt in my life! We pulled a bit, but he was also being a big flirt with this other girl and they defo were kissing, so he's basically a bit of a slag, felt a bit like he was playing us against each other.... Oh well, it was still a fun night and i'm sure I have a new friend even if nothing more happens!

I didnt make it to my 9am french oral class again. It's really bad, I've been to it twice in 9 weeks!! I'm sure my spoken french has gone right downhill. On the plus side I did actually do my translation homework on time this week! woo! go me!

I've been drunk 3 nights in a row, my body was not pleased with me this morning, had the shakes and everything, really not good!! Oh well, had a rest from drinking today, but tomorrow is the medics ball, which is blatantly going to involve much drunkeness. I'm quite looking forward to wearing my zebra dress and me lovely heels, but I'm also a bit nervous seeing as I'm not gonna know many people there.

I think I shall have to listen to more Jimmy Eat World.

meh

2004-12-05T13:40:00.000-08:00

had our houseparty last night, it was ok. i felt a bit lost tho, i feel a bit as tho i dont really know a lot of people that i'm supposed to know. oh well, i still had some fun later, we tied emery to a chair and then dragged him about, got some nice photos, he deserved it tho, i didnt know he was such a twat when he's drunk! I also got sandwiched between two mattresses, which was quite a horrible experience that made me feel like i was being buried alive! something else happened that really annoyed and hurt me a bit but i cant really write about it here.

i still feel like a bit of a loser, i've done no work at all this week, it's quite worrying how easy it is to be a slacker. must stop! went to some good gigs this week also, on tues saw From Autumn to Ashes, Senses Fail, Moneen and Emanuel, they were all really good! On wed it was The Bled, Alexisonfire and Hiding With Girls, was good but not as good as the previous night. I talked a lot of shit when drunk again.

Cant be bothered

must do work!

2004-11-28T12:47:00.000-08:00

ahh last night was great! i drank sooo much (of course) and i danced my socks off, was most excellent!! i seem to have a recollection of stepping on someone's feet, i hope it wasnt anyone i know!! ooh just saw pizza on tv, how good would that be?! i'm trying not to write about men, it's quite difficult!!

Am I a guy's girl??

2004-11-23T15:39:00.000-08:00

Right, just taking a break from essay writing. It's meant to be 2500 words, I've done 1556. It's due in 20mins. Bugger. I decided about half an hour ago that there was no way I'd be handing it in today. So I'm now gonna sit here at the avenue until it's finished, and I'm going to try and make it good!! I figure that that way at least i'll lose 5% of a ok mark rather than just hand it in today and get a rubbish mark!!

Well last night was ROCK at the union, was good fun as usual, I really enjoyed DJing the last hour with Mac and Steph. It was kinda cool to have a bit of power cos I think whenever I've been involved with a long set before Bob has always been with me and I think I tend to rely on him too much for advice about what to play. Also happy cos I spoke to someone that i'd stop being able to talk to cos I was getting so nervous. Not like it was a long chat or anything but I feel as tho I have now broken the mental ice and I'll stop being weird about speaking to him.

I also realised something last night..........I only talk to guys. It's weird but when I think about it I never really talk to girls when I'm out. It's not a conscious thing and I do speak to girls but I don't really seem to have conversations with them...hmm. I have always said that I prefer male company anyway, I think they're often more interesting than girls.......but saying that isn't really fair to my sex......maybe I'm just a flirt....

Another thing I realised is that I talk an awful lot of shit sometimes, it's not like I gabble on or anything, I just say some weird things that dont really make sense to anyone but me....sometimes I think that I shouldn't be allowed to say words!

No rest for the procrastinator!

2004-11-20T02:47:00.000-08:00

Well I managed to get my project in yesterday........about 2 mins before the deadline!! Was so stressful, had big issues printing, as Ben will testify all I could say for about 20mins was 'fuckshitfuckshitohmygodohmygod!' Ran over to maths and made it just in time! *phew* felt like collapsing after that! Instead went to drink pints of green at clowns and then went to hobbit, where I met someone off my course who I didnt recognise (I'm sure I dont actually take any note of ppl who are there!) and hung out with some computer scientist freshers! One of them had some really cool trainers with the fattest tongues ever that had zips on! (would be great for carrying drugs around - lol) But shit, I broke them!! The zip was stuck and I tried to shut it but it broke!! Oops, i feel really bad now :S I also met this girl who told me I was really cool and that she really liked what I was wearing and that I had style! Hehehe, go me, she was really pretty too, hehe and only 16 (Which she really didnt want to admit to!!) What else? Hmm I met a new guy that I like...........and have come to the conclusion that this other guy I did stuff with is ignoring me....I really wanna be friends with him tho :s

Wish I could relax and have lots of fun this weekend but I cant :S Gotta write a 2000 word essay for tuesday..........I should probably choose the title!!

i'm a loser baby

2004-11-20T01:45:00.000-08:00

Decided to go to Lennon's tonight afterall, had a bit of a lame night, i'm really not an indie chick....i dont mind the music, some of it i like even, i just dont think i can take it all in one night! Also just felt a bit lonely. There were lots of couples there and I think maybe i've made out i'm more ok with things than I really am.....I find myself having to look away a lot.......I need a man

drunkey drunkey face face

2004-11-16T03:08:00.000-08:00

wooooooooo im drunk

think my set at lennon's went down well. nice. probably could have pulled tonight if i really tried. think it can wait tho. i have hiccups, violent hiccups. lots of work to do tomorrow. yargh.

so tired

2004-11-11T21:49:00.000-08:00

yo.

rhinos was great last night. today my stomach muscles feel very odd, i presume this is from dancing like a crazy bitch all night :D i got rather drunk as per usual. as bob said on his blog he made me be brave. i shall explain! well it's kinda weird but i was on a bus back from town the other day and at one bus stop i looked out of the window into this shop where i saw this guy that looked kinda cute. i saw him again at rhinos last night and told bob this. got near the end of the night and i was being all like 'i wanna talk to him but i cant' so bob basically made me go and talk to him.....i talked a lot of rubbish naturally (the things i say when pissed really do amaze me) but then i got interrupted by this guy me and bob know bounding over and talking to me, he then went off. bob asked if i had got the cute guy's number, i hadnt, so he forced me to go back and get his number, which i did. yay. i doubt anything will happen but he did just reply to my text so you never know.....

i've also found an email address stored in my saved messages, i have no idea who it belongs to....

life is just full of ups and downs

2004-11-09T18:27:00.000-08:00

had a crappy day today. decided to give myself a lie cos i've been going to bed really late for the past week and not had a proper sleep so i got up at one. half the day gone. got the library a few hours later, the book i need for my project has lost itself somewhere. realised that i'm gonna have to buy the book, then spent ages faffing about trying to get online, the uni computers wouldnt let me use amazon. came home and bought the book, 40 quid down the pan :( and it's not gonna be delievered til friday. bollocks. it started raining too, trust me to be wearing my most baggy trousers!

well at least teachers is on tonight, that will make me smile.

rocklite went quite well last night. there was a bombscare at the uni tho so we had to move it to the mitre. i dont really like the mitre that much (drinks are more expensive!) but it wasnt so bad in the end, tho i did feel a bit lost like i didnt really know who to talk to. quite a few ppl showed up, so what could have been a disaster was actually quite successful. everyone seemed to love the band....tho i couldnt get past the fact that the singer reminded me of the singer from rooster!

:)

2004-11-08T13:39:00.000-08:00

you know sometimes you're just in a good mood and you dont know why? i like when this happens :)

i should really do some work, i care not today!

and then someone says something that really pisses you off. thanks.

rage

2004-11-07T23:32:00.000-08:00

*anger*

writing this is notepad cos i cant get online

our internet connection is one of the most infuriating things ever. i dont think anyone else in our house cares tho, or else i'm sure ben and bob would have actually got a new router on friday when they said they would. they forgot the one which they need to return so didnt get a new one. god knows when we're gonna get one. i know ppl are busy but i just wish we could get this sorted. i'd do it myself but i have no idea about routers.....so i'll just bitch about it instead.

had a good weekend in london. went out to barbella on friday night forkirsty's birthday. it's a really nice restaurant, mexican food and cocktails! naturally seeing as me and hannah t were together we had lots to drink andgot fairly tipsy. blagged a lift with tara and tony to the nelson where we met up with the guys and hannah rowe and co. really nice to see everyone, copious hugs! i didnt really stay there long....ended up leaving everyoneand going to the anglers where other ppl i know were. spent the rest of the evening chatting with metalheads and then going back to their house for somejoints and watching the tour video of this guy's band. fell asleep around 5 am on the sofa under a sleeping bag that smelt of cider!

still cant connect...i'm sure someone lied to me, surely this is not broadband!

went to ronnie scott's jazz club in soho last night. was cool, smelly ben got us free tickets cos he works at abbey road. although we turned up late so we hadto wait a while for a table. felt very grown up to be in a place like that, also felt pretty drunk - 'wine then beer, you'll feel queer'....well i didnt feelqueer, just really tired! was kinda hard to enjoy the music when all you wanna do is sleep. amazing musicians tho.

coheed and cambria are quite good arent they?!

got into a bit of a political debate with smelly ben, he told me he doesnt vote.i think it's really important to vote so this annoyed me! his view was that hedoesnt think you should vote just for the sake of voting, only if you actually support and believe in a party. i agree with this to a certain extent but not voting doesnt actually say anything really. there is no way to distinguish a personwho is making a considered decision not to vote and someone who just cant be bothered. a spoilt ballot paper is a better way to go if you're gonna take this stance. my view is basically that some is going to win whether you vote or not so you might as well make it count. pick the least bad side if none of them really appeal for. sometimes it's a matter of voting to stop the one you dont want to win from winning. anyway, i've lost my train of thought.

time to make velcro letters

Return of the blog

2004-11-03T23:54:00.001-08:00

I havent blogged for ages! maragah!

Americans - WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?! Half the country really are retarded, 50% more americans believe in genesis than evolution......and these are the people that who get to decide on the most powerful leader in the world. Great. We decided to stay up and watch the election last night....I guess we were hoping to witness history - was a bit of an anti-climax! Had pizza and cookies tho :) and we did get to giggle at the man with the lego hair :D

It's been long, I dont quite know what to write about. I have loads of work at the moment, it sucks, I cant do my coursework that's due in on friday. I'm gonna get up early tomorrow tho and hopefully i'll manage to get it done....

Too much cake in the house!

2004-10-19T01:07:00.000-07:00

It's monday and i'm not at the bar!! Shock horror. Last week I drank loads every night from monday to saturday so i've decided this week to have a bit of a rest! I have loads of work that I should do anyway and I need to save money! We have an AIM pubcrawl to rhinos on wednesday which should be really good. I'm worried that no freshers will turn up tho! When we went to Nexus on friday hardly any came, but i'm gonna put this down to it being friday. I'm really not that into Nexus on a friday, it's just too indie for my liking, was quite annoying on friday cos ! was really drunk and wanted to dance loads but the music just wasnt what ! really wanted to hear, and the DJ wouldnt play Skunk Anansie, if that's not wrong then I don't know what is!!

Been moping slightly this evening and trying to avoid eating anymore of the chocolate cake that is in our fridge!! I also decided that our living room needed livening up a bit so I cut loads of things out of magazines and stuck em up on the wall. Still needs improving tho! My moping has mostly been to do with boy stuff. Last week I went on a date with a guy that I met online on the faceparty website. Yeah I know this is a bit weird but lots of people do it!! So I met up with him and it was a bit weird but we had some drinks and it was all good fun, I have a huge lovebite to prove it! Was a bit weird after tho. I'd like to see him again but I kinda think he's not interested and that's why I've been moping. Before we met he was really forward but now it seems to have changed. The stupid thing is that I probably don't even I like him that much, but I think it's just that I want him to want me, and the fact that he doesnt appear to makes me want him more! Think this is all rebound mentality and I just want to be wanted! On the plus side everything is fine with Bob now and it doesnt hurt to see him with mary, slightly weird obviously but completely copable with!! I'm so relieved that things are ok, was so worried before I came back to uni that it would be horrible. Phew!

this week might kill me!

2004-10-15T16:10:00.000-07:00

fucking internet connection i just wrote a really long blog and now its gone. fucking dammit

bored

2004-10-07T22:32:00.000-07:00

*sigh* i'm so so bored tonight. feeling a bit lonely too, rach and bob are both out, ben and lucy are downstairs but i dont really want to intrude. i dont like being the only singleton in the house. i cant even turn to msn for solace, it's really playing up and keeps signing me out. dammit. not that theres really anyone good online to talk to. i dont feel like i've really spoken to anyone much today. *sigh* i need some friends. and a hug.

I think it's gonna be ok

2004-10-07T13:26:00.000-07:00

Woo! We have internet in our house, may sad little life can resume it's normal process!!

Well I'm back at uni, at everything's going ok. I'm happy to be back, I *love* my new room, it's nice and big and seems to have a pink glow to it! Feel sorry for Bob and his tiny tiny room though, his own fault for being nice I guess!

Thinking that stuff I was worried about is going to be ok. Not feeling much emotional pain which is a good thing, can all seem a bit odd sometimes, especially after a few drinks but I think that will pass in a few weeks.

Been in an odd mood today. I really need to find a job so today I went into town with the intention of giving my cv to loads of places. I didn't hand out one! It seems about every shop in southamton has some sort of vacancy but for some reason I really didn't feel like talking to anyone!! I asked in HMV but they had just filled all their part time vacancies, this started me on a bit of a downer as I really wanted to work there! The only other place I asked in was the gadget store....really wish I hadnt....the guy I spoke to asked if I could sing or dance, I said dance maybe, then he asked me to dance right then and there. Now maybe if I hadn't been horribly hungover I would have obliged so I won't be working there....apparently you need to be a big show off. By this point I realised today wasn't a good day to find a job so I decided to walk all the way home from town.....stopping off to get my lip pierced on the way! After speaking to a guy (called Guy!) last night I kinda decided I wanted to do it today so I went for it. It hurt a lot, more than any of my other piercings, maybe more than most of my tattoo as well! Feels pretty weird eating etc and I have this horrible anticeptic mouthwash that is disgusting!! But I think i'm pleased I did it, life's too short!!

Can't be arsed to write anymore today!

A/IM is great. We rule.

tr-hell

2004-10-02T00:42:00.000-07:00

The problem with getting excited about something and telling lots of ppl about it is that if it doesn't happen then you look like a bit of a loser! We didn't get to see Green Day on TRl on thursday which sucks loads! We had tickets and you'd expect it to be that you have a ticket and you queue up and it's a first come first served type affair. That would make sense. But no, they have this priority ticket system. If you have one of these then you are guaranteed entry. Now according to one of the security guards there's normally only about 10 people who have them. On thursday there were 56....and only 70 spaces in the studio....so that leaves 14 normal ticket holders. Bum. So we spent the rest of the day hanging around outside the studio like losers, bitching about the 14 year olds who got to go in. We got to see Green Day and Sum41 walk from their cars into the building and Alex Zane smoking a fag. Wow.

While i've been writing this TOTPSaturday is on the TV. I just saw something truly awful. They are called The Noise Next Door, their song is called Lock up your daughters......hmmm I don't think that's gonna be neccessary! They're basically another Busted style 'band'....and they're triplets....ugly triplets who cant sing or write songs it would appear. At least some of Busted are fit and they do have good pop songs if you like that sort of thing!

Today my throat really hurts. My mum seems to thing we have a bit of a cold going round my house.......so it looks like i'll be bringing some nice germs with me to southampton tomorrow!!

Getting my tattoo done today!! I'm so excited!! I'm not worried about the pain....maybe i'll change my mind on that later tho! Fingers crossed that nothing goes against me and it actually happens! - i'll be so disappointed!!

Will post again later. I need to do my good and bad points of the summer!

excited

2004-09-29T20:42:00.000-07:00

The reason for my excitement?! Well tomorrow I'm going with 2 friends to be in the audience for MTV's TRL.....why would you want to do such a thing I hear you ask. Green day are gonna be on - woo! I'm gonna be in an small studio with green day and alex zane (swoon) I dont think it can get much better that that! Gonna have to have a few drinkies beforehand tho, or else I dont think I'll be able to cheer convincingly ;)

Today I have been thinking about how girls get obsessed and infatuated with some guys. I'm sure guys get crushes and stuff but it doesn't seem to manifest in the same way...or maybe they just hide it better! I'm not just talking about normal fancying, I'm talking about infatuation. When it's all you think about and all you want to talk about. When every action and word is analysed to look for some hidden meaning that he's secretly desperately in love with you. (ie. he hugged me 3 seconds longer than normal, what does that mean?!) It doesnt matter that he doesnt reply to your texts and that you never do go for that drink that he mentioned. It's all to do with that wanting what you can't have thing, except with this obsessive type of crush in you're head there's a part of you that thinks you can have him, and that's why the crush doesn't just move on and evolves into this infatuation that has you worrying about your sanity. Logic and reason do not apply, no matter how rational you are about the reality of the situation and the fact you know that really he is just a bastard (see below) you can't help being completely irrational in your thoughts. Most bizarre.

Calling men bastards. That's another thing I've been thinking about. It seems to me that girls will often label a guy a bastard just because he doesn't fancy her, or say he slept with her and doesn't want anymore. Of course guys are bastards to girls sometimes but if a girl has a one night stand with a guy then doesn't call him then that's fine with her, in fact it will probably be the guy's fault for not being up to her 'standards'. Anyway, it all seems like we'll call a guy a bastard at the drop of a hat (well i would be a bit annoyed if he dropped my hat - sorry) but really I don't think they're any worse than us girls! I mean, girls are bitches!!!

Today I listened to:
Less than Jake - Anthem
Rock Against Bush - Fat Wreck Chords compilation
Muse - Absolution
Finch - What it is to burn
My Chemical Romance - I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love
Disturbed - The Sickness
The Killers - Hot Fuss

helloeverybodypeeps

2004-09-29T01:13:00.000-07:00

Eeek, gave Bob my blog addy today so I guess that means people I know might actually read this thing.....

So i've been thinking about war....

I think instead of having armies every country should have some sort of giant animal. Then instead of a war there would just be a duel between the two 'mascots'. It wouldnt really change the outcome of conflicts because it would still be the countries with the most money that win cos their monsters would be better trained etc but less normal people would have to die, plus you wouldnt need armies and it would probably cost less. In the days of genetic modification I don't see why this couldnt happen.

My ear cancer infected piercing seems to be going down which is a good thing, musnt stop cleaning it now!!! I bet if I got my eyebrow pierced i'd end up getting that infected too, that would be soo ugly!

Today I listened to these albums:
AFI - Sing the Sorrow
Millencolin - Pennybridge Pioneers
Random compilation free from Rock Sound
The Used - In Love and Death
Pennywise - Straight Ahead

Kill the damn things!

2004-09-27T23:48:00.000-07:00

Daddylonglegs......my house seems to be infested with the things. Now I don't normally have a problem with this spindley legged flys (which is weird cos i hate spiders) but these ones are just HUGE so I think I may have to resort to murder....that's only if I can't get them out of my room tho.

Today was ok. Had a bit of a worry about going back to uni this afternoon. Was listening to a slow song by skunk anansie, it made me feel a bit sad I think I am slightly petrified deep down that I'm going to majorly hurt when I am faced with the reality of my situation. However it could be an overreaction and I might be fine! Will have to wait and see......

hurrah, just killed the daddylongleg!

In other news I am very much looking foward to the stuff we're gonna be doing with AIM (Alternative/Indie Music Society) I want to get as involved as I can as I think this is gonna be way to make friends with people I actually want to be friends with. I just spent all evening designing a flyer. It turned out shit. Dammit.

Periods suck. Be thankful boys.

And so it begins

2004-09-26T13:39:00.000-07:00

Well here I am jumping on the bloggy bandwaggon. I actually just wrote a long post but I lost it as I was messing about trying to get a photo uploaded. I can't be bothered to write it all again. Needless to say I went to the Comedy Store last night and had an excellent evening. Today has been spent mostly sleeping and eating, as all sundays should.

Writing a blog seems like one of the most emo things to do ever. I guess that depends on how much of what goes on it your head you actually post. But from what I've read on other blogs the most interesting ones are the ones with the thoughts and feelings on it, rather than 'today i did this...' I kinda like the idea of writing everything I'm feeling on here, but then I dont think I'd want people I know to read it! Hmmm.

Well this here picture is a design of the tattoo I am going to get on saturday. It's emo stars and I'm going to have it on my back/left shoulderblade about 6cm long. I'm very excited about it although I keep having to put off getting it. I was intending to get it yesterday morning but then I decided against it as i was planning to go to an alternative club last night (which didn't happen - grrr) and I think it's probably best to be sensible about looking after it!

A lot of my friends are very against me getting inked. It's rather irritating. Fair enough that they don't want one themselves but I don't see why they can't support my decision, it's not like I haven't thought about it. Similarly I was considering getting my lip pierced and none of them liked that idea. I think the real reason I wanted one was because I find them very sexy on guys. So I think i'm going to leave it to them! Now i'm gonna go for an eyebrow bar. Bit annoyed that Bob has just had both of these piercings done.......it all makes it seems a bit cliched, ah well, tattoo is the first thing.

Why do I feel like I'm going in a different direction from my friends? I've really started looking at my life really and thinking about who I am. Maybe I'm going through a bit of rebellion. I don't know, but I see that at lot of my friends have gone to uni and they've come back less rock. I don't want this to happen to me. Music is such a huge part of my life and who I am, I really don't want to forget that.

I think i'm just talking rubbish now......

Are we allowed to swear on this?